Everyone says we should win, we will win this war, as of today, we do not know what is victory: to recapture Donetsk, Luhansk, or leave those borders? We will beat the Crimea or not? What are our next steps and what is the meaning of this victory is to stop or eradicate? If we say that we will pass Lugansk and Donetsk, as I watch my friends in the eye, I was there on the frontlines, who is originally from the East? I stood almost six months and we fought to get them back home, and it turns out that we have carried a war, many died, and now we all give. Why then do we stand? I'm for justice, but there many people did not vote, many don't want and never wanted. My victory is to defend the territory that was ours.

I nominated. Recently was a co-founder of the construction company and before going to the front changed the job and went to work in a company that was engaged in food packaging: it was interesting for me. In June I became registered as a reservist, and in August I got deployed. For post I - the sniper in the 1st company of the 1st battalion 93-it brigade.

When we went to their BMP in the Sands of Cherkasy, where we have a permanent location, literally 20 miles our car broke down. The column was gone, and our Department in the amount of 8 people and 4 out repair crews remained two days spent in an open field without warm clothes.
Each had one sack lunch. Warmed by the fire, because it was the end of October, the night frosts. When I woke up, back in frost, and his face burned from the fire. There were good people, with whom we contacted on the mobile phone, two days later they came for us and took. When I arrived at the Sands, our company commander was in full confidence that we are on to his position, he didn't even know that we were lost.
Arriving at the post, we didn't know which side the enemy is and what our where that is because we arrived at night and immediately came under mortar attack. We did not even have radios. For two weeks we are constantly, as they say, beautiful wing - it was a "congratulations" with the rotation.
On our 18th post, as it appeared later, were sent to people that argued with officers, expressed their opinions about the officers ' work, often negative. In truth, the officers we have not seen in its position during the month. Some even do not visited positions, and was sitting in the dugout. And to the question of staff about the situation and they said, "we all is calm, all is well," despite the fact that we had a hard mortar attacks. Only two officers in our company, platoon commanders, the young guys are 23-24 years old, the giant and the Sinner, were responsible, thinking about how to provide their people with everything they need. And if they do not, then we would probably even water is not seen, because we are three and a half months only once brought water and firewood, and everything else we have delivered themselves. Sami went to the headquarters for necessary. Our company supply not just worked, and when they asked why they don't visit, they said, "you shoot there". And it turns out that people on the front line don't need to feed. Thank God that there are volunteers who are not afraid to go where they shoot.
Once, during another trip to the headquarters, we with my friend Nicholas came under fire. To get to the headquarters, we had to drive 15 km, along the front line. We were driving in a normal car, which shot. Kolya was injured, which was incompatible with life. He died in my arms, and for me it was very hard. Are you trying not to understand what happened, trying to reject this and say to yourself that it can't be, but unfortunately, it happens. You can get used to everything, fights, attacks, mines, tanks, but not to the death of friends.
Our 18th fasting is extreme right wing, he is very close to the enemy on three sides you can attack. On my fifth day after his arrival there was a small panic, and in conversation with his friend I even once said that God is not here, so much we were bombed.
But after two months I analyzed the situation we are in: we were bombed constantly, right near the house exploded 3-4 missiles "Grad", but some of us remain alive. When 5 metres from you Mina falls and does not cling, the shards fly past, then you begin to think that somebody cares. Where we lived for 5 and a half months there was not a single direct hit in the house, although it is one of the largest houses in all Sands. Snow white we saw briefly when he just fell. Then, a few hours later, he was black from the explosion.
The most serious fight for me was to try a tank breakthrough in our flank. We came unprepared for the position, they are impossible to fight and survive. We ourselves, manually, did 3 rows of trenches, 2 dugout and became more reserved. There were moments when the trench had to dive in the truest sense of the word, because "Grad" exploded 5 meters away from you, and you jumped back, rolled over and looked at the "starry sky", which emerged from the break. The position was covered everything was covered with shells.
One day left two tanks. They began to fire on our positions, in particular the guys from the "Right sector", which was in the position of "heaven". The distance of 700 meters, and I had no idea how they are there, because when near us exploded, at least we were on the ground, and they are in the railway construction, a small room above the ground. I shot three times and LNG at an enemy tank, but due to the fact that they went straight into the open field, and were behind the trees, a direct hit on them did not work, because it interfered branches. We made the decision through the Central headquarters to call the support of artillery, and I had to adjust, getting out of the trench, to see where there is a gap, there falling into the tank or not. The error at the "castle" is 500 metres away and it is normal. We were within 600 metres from the enemy, and when our art was beginning to help, it was 100 meters probability that you will get on us. But guys jewelry worked, and almost all of the breaks were directly in front of the tank. They were in one of the tanks, the second one went.
Without artillery we would have been shot at close range. I think we need some other type of weapons, and it is, but sometimes our generals say weird things, instead of giving arms: "why don't you come out with an RPG, don't make an ambush on a tank?" I don't know whether it will come today or in a month, so you can't sit for a month in the ground and wait. There is after all and other weapons, there are "dogs", for example, is a tank installation. But we don't, we run with these RPGs, you might say, fighting with bare hands against the tank. When it's running direct fire, you shoot at it and he sees the point whence the shot, your second shot is already a suicide, and the third is absolute suicide. I don't know how we survived, lucky he just came into our dugout.
At first we thought that the worst is torn near you mine, then, "Hail", then sat in the room and quietly ate when we were shot at, thinking, "What will you do? Is hit then so be it, no - so lucky," and ate on.
The second month we already knew in seconds, from what point of firing, believed and knew to whistle - does you mine danger or not. I have after the next fight had the desire to all over the world broke the weapon, and then people will start to talk, and questions will be solved by dialogue, not war.
From the Sand we came out April 1 on the rotation, went out by another battalion. Finally, the next officer who drove, I realized that this post should be a lot more people than it was. Previously, there stood our office is 8, then 7 and it was 4 Onova with whom we made friends and were on duty. The maximum we had up to 15 people, minimum of 9-10 people, and should stand at least 2 branches, up to 30 people.

It's a shame that no one has received any awards or medals. I personally wrote to the commander of a company report on awards for their children, friends who were with me after performing certain tasks, but they further battalion just not progressed.
We even staff came and said that those who remained alive, abandon their awards, but to 100% of the people who died. Sorry, we failed to do it.
Yes, we will continue to serve and to perform his duty, but the credibility of the officers is much smaller than it was in the beginning. We understand that while themselves don't help, repair equipment, do not care about food and BC, anywhere do not get help. Many officers no such thing as officer's honor, word of honor is such an empty phrase that they scattered right and left.
For us it was funny when there was such a promise as 1000 UAH per day. First we were told that it is to be paid on execution of combat missions. The battalion, in principle, is coming to perform combat tasks, but as it turned out, fighting tasks we have on the papers - no, although we stayed there for a very long time. And money is given for every clash, there should be a log fire. Fighting, when we are fired and we are responsible, should be considered. We did not have this, of course, no one fights not believed, told us: "Guys, remember, here you're not gonna get". We are not after the money arrived, but empty promises are the norm on the front.
Everyone says we should win, we will win this war, as of today, we do not know what is victory: to recapture Donetsk, Luhansk, or leave those borders? We will beat the Crimea or not? What are our next steps and what is the meaning of this victory is to stop or eradicate? If we say that we will pass Lugansk and Donetsk, as I watch my friends in the eye, I was there on the frontlines, who is originally from the East? I stood almost six months, and we fought to bring them home, and it turns out that we have carried a war, many died, and now we all give. Why then do we stand? I'm for justice, but there many people did not vote, many don't want and never wanted. My victory is to defend the territory that was ours.
Seeing the attitude at the front, I come to the conclusion that first we lived like cattle, then there was a revolution, which we kind of showed that we are not trash, but then came the war, and here again it turns out that we're rednecks, we're dust on someone's hands.
I remained to muster a 3.5 month contract I sign will not, because it's not the people with whom you can sign the contract. I think the biggest problem we have is wasted human resource: go into battle without intelligence, intelligence is responsible for the protection, snipers become normal arrows, tankers become engineers. That is, people sometimes don't even open military card of a man who had once served, to see his military specialty, they immediately think of a new one. I think that while this will not change, the victory we will not.
Now we are fighting in order to give children the chance to have choice in their lives. We, people who are older, have already made their choice, gave birth to this corruption and are now trying to fix it. And in the East for children to look hurt. Winter was a case where my comrades, returning from the headquarters, I saw a woman with two children tried to dig out of the ice fish, which came up in the hole after the fire. Guys know where these people live, and then we had probably bag 4 food and took them. Transferred your phone number and he said that they were not shy and definitely call if they needed anything.
We understand what went there, we all know where we get their support, we know who believe in us and who agree to wait for us children. So, when it gets really bad and you don't know what to do, come to any kindergarten or to school, see the children and understand what you all were doing is not in vain and you're willing to go to fight.

Text and photo: Vika Yasinsaya, Censor.NET

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